Yesterday I went to Amy's house because Dan was there and I wanted to spend time with him. I knew that he wasn't going to get to come back to Downers Grove for another 2 weeks or so, and I wanted to spend as much time as possible with him. When I got there Dan was sitting outside without shoes on and with a guitar in his hands. What a hippie. We went inside and turned on Donnie Darko. I hadn't seen it before, but I liked it alot. Then Dan and I just kinda layed on the bed that was down in the basement (where we were) and talked, made out, cuddled, laughed, and basiclly just enjoyed eachother's company. Meghan Morgan called us then and told Dan that when she was driving to North Beach for the show, he tailgate opened and her bass amp fell out the back. In the end, it turned out to be ok, but at the time nobody was sure if everthing was going to work out. Dan and I were sitting on the bed and I pulled out some of his leg hairs. As a punishment, Dan told me he would pull out some of my pubes if I did that again. I told him I would punch him in the balls if he did. Just to prove that I would, I went ahead and punched him. He was pretty shocked so I kissed him on the cheek to make him feel better. That wasn't good enough though and he tried to get to my pubes to pull some out. In the struggle to keep his hand out of my pants, I accedently head-butted him and his forhead ended up swollen. I really do love that kid with every thing I have. Soon it was about time for Dan to be at North Beach for the show so we called my mom and she gave us a ride over there. About 5 minutes after Dan and I arrived at North Beach, Leah, Cat, Brittney, and Teresa came waltzing in the door. Leah kept saying, "I have to tell you all something" so eventually she got around to telling us that she's going to New York City with her brother and his friend to protest Bush. She's going to be gone for 3 days and will miss the first day of school. Damn, I'm gunna miss that girl. Even if it is only for 3 days. The show was a disaster. With Regards couldn't start on time because the microphones weren't working. Then the manager started yelling at them to play, and didn't get the fact that the fucking microphones weren't working. Eventually, though, With Regards got started playing (even though there were only 2 working microphones). Other shows have been better, but you have to just laugh at the ones that don't go so well. Dan's microphone faded out in the middle of "Your heart, black as oil" so Katie, Cat, Britney, Teresa, Leah, and I all started shouting "We see through the lies, we see through the lies, we see through the lies and we know it's bullshit" along with Dan. That was fun. Matt left the show before Leah ever got to tel him that she was going to New York. Poor Matt. Since it was past 6 pm and none of us had had dinner, we were all pretty hungry. Somebody remembered there was a Penara Bread across the high way. It truelly is beyond me how we all made it across without anybody getting hit, but we did make it. I got a PB&J Sandwich and a Green Apple Jones Soda. After we all ate, we walked around only to find that there were no stores open passed 7.30 p.m. on Sunday nights. Instead we ended up all sprinting across the highway once again and waited for our rides home. Cat went with Meghan to make sure her amp wouldn't fall out again. Mrs. Cordova gave all of us a ride over to Katie's house. Kyle and Teresa walked home together and Brian and Pat came to give Britney a ride home and Andrew and I walked over here. I asked my dad to give Andy-roo a ride home, but he told him to call his mom. Both of us knew his mom wouldn't give him a ride, so he walked. When my mom found out he was walking, she felt bad and was on her way to the car to go give him a ride, when my dad started yelling at her. It was a bad fight. I'd rather not go into the details right now. Maybe later. Dad called Andrew's mom though. I hate him so much. I told my mom that and for the first time in my life she said to me, "Me too." It all scares me sometimes. All I wanted to do last night was call Dan and talk to him. I wanted to spill my feelings to him and I wanted him to be with me and to hold me and kiss me and tell me that everything was going to be ok. I wanted to bury my face in his shoulder and for just a while, to feel safe. I love him so much. And I hate the fact that when I need him, I can't even talk to him. You know why? Because he's in fucking Plainfield. And I won't get to see him for two more fucking weeks.
I have to remember to tell Meggie that Jennifer Aniston is going to be on the Ellen Degenerous Show this week.
But then she went away and she's not coming back
And I'm pretty sure that boy is staying in tonight.